I'd appreciate it if you all take time to read this journal 8D
WOW HAHAHAH I don't usually ask for this, but really, I could say this journal's worth it HEHEHE
It's a comic journal
OK NOT REALLY
BUT ANYWAY YEAH
SORTA PICTURE HEAVY
But yes wait for it to load /slapped
---To One of the Strongest People Ever(Note : Appearances of characters Zhlei and Flitter aren't entirely accurate, as I haven't really seen them in real life so it's a vague avatar of both of them /slapped/ I can say Pippa is accurate tho)
This is one of my best friends online, Zhleio.
We met through a very simple way- the Pokemon fandom!
Our age differences aren't very far, so we got along quite well!
I wasn't very chatty to her the first time we met, so I only got to know her through her journals.
I always admired her art style, and how she can make such beautiful artworks through simple techniques.
But behind all these beautiful artworks, I saw that she goes through tough times.
Back then, when I met her, I was living a hard time as well- Um, at least I thought so.
I didn't receive a nice welcome from the new school I moved to, so I was getting my "emo urges".
But then I learned more about Zhlei, and I realized... My problems aren't as bad as hers.
I continued to watch her from afar- and that's where I saw it-
I saw that even if times were hard for her, I saw... I saw that she continued to do what she loved doing.
She continued to draw, fix her stories and make original characters.
School was my only problem. Zhlei went through tougher times-
"Look at her!" I said to myself. Zhlei- she continued living. She continued drawing more and more,
improving more and more... I felt inspired. I felt the need to become more positive.
I wanted to become like her- Hopeful, strong, and creative. And so I pulled myself together and I became more optimistic.
And that's how I got closer to her-
It wasn't the Pokemon fandom, the sharing of Original characters/stories...
It was because I saw that Zhlei was an awesome person! She taught me how to continue living even if times are hard,
so I wanted to help her too. I wanted us to work together to become happier people and improve our artworks!
Here we even became a trio of some sort- Yes, I was so happy when she became friends with a former deviant Flitter-Flutter!
I felt that I changed-
Those years before, I could really say I was a mess. So many disturbing emo thoughts ran around my head.
But after I met Zhlei, I learned to become more happy. I learned that being sad about everything isn't the best option.
It's not that I'm not allowed to be sad- It's just I have to be more hopeful.
This is where I discovered I had a crazy and happy side! I started all caps-ing and being dumb
hehe... I think I got weirder... In a good way? The emo clouds have faded away.
And it's partly because of you, Zhlei!
Aside from my supportive family, Zhlei was a very huge inspiration to me.
Sure, she's not loud, not the hyperactive super genki type, but she showed her hope and strength in her own unique ways.
dA is where she is most expressive, and here she would be honest about her feelings.
But not only that, she expressed her hope through art. Even if she's going through so much, she continued to improve her art, upload more and more beautiful artworks. I have to admit that maybe I even mope around more about posting art than she does!
There came that time when Zhlei was having a bad year.
Or, well, at least a couple of months didn't go so well.
I felt so bad seeing her crumble down like that.
Flitter and I continued giving our all and doing our best to make her feel better.
"Don't give up! Things will get better!"
Yes... Don't give up... Things WILL get better.
Zhlei, you taught me that! You taught me to fight on and be cool!
We were always here for you, Zhlei!
It's not that we're just being "too nice" or anything.
Zhlei, you've been a part of our lives, and you have been an inspiration to both of us.
Maybe even to so many other people who watch your art from afar!
You may never know how many "internet hugs" Flitter and I sent to you during those times.
I'm sorry if I wasn't great help, Zhlei.
Please don't laugh at me. There were times I would legit cry in real life for you /SORRYSORRYHAHAHAHA
I found some of your problems unfair,
and I was feeling sad that you had to go through all those things.
I cried, thinking I couldn't do anything, thinking you really have to go through sadness.
But then, each time I cried...
I look at my messages. (MY MESSAGES I DON'T ALWAYS REPLY TO RIGHT AWAY JKJK)
And I saw that you're active.
Sharing fun stuff.
I would cry for your problems, but then I see you stand up again.
It's silly, isn't it?
I'm sure you also cry, and it's okay to cry, Zhlei.
But HAHA the next thing I know is... I'M THE ONLY ONE CRYING
SHE'S ALREADY STANDING NEXT TO ME
And then my tears would stop for a bit
and I watch Zhlei rise again-
~artworks by Zhlei herself~
Doing things she loves to do,
Doing things that makes her happy,
Being an inspiration to other artists,
Even through the simplest doodles,
She makes the ordinary life look beautiful.
No matter what weird stuff happens in her life,
She would keep herself together, she won't even explode or anything. She expresses her feelings through calm ways.
You can't help but feel sad when things get shaky, but I understand that completely. Everyone understands that. Like I said, it's okay to be sad.
Using her art, she would even spread happiness to other people. She doesn't only draw for herself, she draws for others.
She touches people's lives with her art,
and when she sees her friends are being sad,
she gives her best to get them together.
~End of Zhlei Artwork Gallery~
Before long, I realized I wasn't crying because of her unfair problems.
I was crying because of how awesome Zhlei is!
I was crying because Zhlei continues to be really strong.
Up until now, she's doing what she wants to do.
She never gets rid of her passion.
And that's why... Zhlei, my great, awesome, beautiful friend, is one of the strongest people I've ever met.
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO LET'S ALL APPLAUSE FOR ZHLEI, SHE's AN AMAZING PERSON AND AN AMAZING ARTIST!
I'M SORRY I MAY HAVE SOUNDED REPETITIVE UP THERE, I CAN't STRESS ENOUGH ON HOW AWESOME SHE IS!!!
ZHLEI, I just want to say that... You're never a burden to people.
Look up there, those are my thoughts about you!
In fact, you never even burdened me.
You inspired me to be more positive and strong.
And for that, thank you so much!!!!!
HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY WOOT WOOT YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SORRY I'M PRETTY LATE HAHA MY SLEEP SCHED SUCKS
BUT ANYWAY YEAH!!!
I'll make a proper birthday drawing for you okay? /criesI'msorryImadeareallyweirdjournal
P.S. SORRY IF YOUR AVATAR DUN LOOK LIKE YOU HUHUHU OTL